Sunday, January 10, 2010

with regards to mental health

I was thinking about what drove me to feel and desire certain things. then I saw a smuckers commercial which showed 2 boys at a apple tree. one boy asked.. are you going to pick it? the other replied but its not ready yet.. but its will be soon very soon.
they talked about how they waited for the best time to harvest their fruit for making jam.
I thought in my mind, why doesnt the boy just take the apple and eat it? sure its not ready.. but doesnt he want to eat it? reflecting upon this I realized that there is a major flaw in the mental awareness of one who must consume constantly to be kept content, now sure this is gluttony but I do it in another way. even if its not ready and I need it. or if its not the best source and takes more away from me I still do it because I must have.

what a sad soul I must be to always be looking for a way out, to be taken away no matter what.

I need to fix this mental process of mine.
patience, strength, resolve, empowerment,

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