so I changed my attitude back to its happy self,
I find happiness and positive solutions in everything , even the bad,
but as long as I commit no evil, then everything I do is right
if I do commit evil I must find good from it to make up for the wrong.
the time it takes to release the sadness will make up for the wrong.
even not working out weighs on my mind forever until I finally make up for it.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Sunday, April 12, 2009
im having lots of streaming thoughts while reading some testimonies.
I feel the interpretation of 666 means
a triangle is the shape of god (existance), two triangles put together would be six like the Jewish star
there are 3 dimensions but they keep on going on and on and on. up down, left right, foward backwards.
like the explanation of the golden mean, or the meaning of beauty and what makes something beautiful.
so another 3 dimensions would be
1 action, body,
2 consciousness, mind
3 reasoning, spirit
6 is double of 3.... duh right. so there are 2 dimensions or WAYs. good vs evil .cause, effect.
so 6 is freewill you could say,
3, 6s would be 3 dimensions that gave free will BUT always worked as a cycle. therefore freewill was irrelevant.
I feel the interpretation of 666 means
a triangle is the shape of god (existance), two triangles put together would be six like the Jewish star
there are 3 dimensions but they keep on going on and on and on. up down, left right, foward backwards.
like the explanation of the golden mean, or the meaning of beauty and what makes something beautiful.
so another 3 dimensions would be
1 action, body,
2 consciousness, mind
3 reasoning, spirit
6 is double of 3.... duh right. so there are 2 dimensions or WAYs. good vs evil .cause, effect.
so 6 is freewill you could say,
3, 6s would be 3 dimensions that gave free will BUT always worked as a cycle. therefore freewill was irrelevant.
dang I can rant pretty well.
heres my reply to someone who has found the truth and is being destroyed by it.
the thread is very interesting. atleast for as I fell the knowledge which is genuine and which is false, I know what they are thinking and the choices they will make. its like life the musical. haha
http://www.abovetopsecret.com/forum/viewthread.php?tid=438333&page=8#
He has viewed the ocean of perceptions and found the golden mean, or atleast what he believes to be that which he has found. hearing what he has claimed makes me believe he has found one part of its meaning. but because he cannot release his sins that lead him back into the cycle, he cannot come to a true understanding. he is satisfied with his perception and how it fits into others.
he looked for truth and since he believes he is part of something that he is bound to, he filled the incompleteness of his soul with pride of ancestry that he believes will make him man he has always wanted to be.
I believe he has tapped into the universal consciousness but because he still based his perception of happiness, which stems from the perception of how reality works.
the truth became convoluted between his old self (perceptions) and his new self that he was embracing but did not question and look for deeper meaning into to find the real reason because he was satisfied with the perception of reality that had been secured in his mind when he accepted this reality of other convoluted souls ,which he knew or believed to be right and knew the way of life. he did not want to be disappointed so kept his questions within a set parameter
now the search for meaning of life and reason for how existance works are filled with pride and self righteousness since he has been introduced to destiny. he thinks that even if I am wrong with my perceptions at this time I will learn and find deeper understanding through situational awareness.
he searches for a way to materialize and rectify his belief, such as getting attention with agreement/disagreement , belief of fate ( that he is destined to do so and is connected a life path.) therefore changing his souls frequency from openness to routine (which is hell, the beast, evil, etc)
he does not believe in the truth 100% basically, he can never get to it without unless he erases his perception and matches it completely with the universal consciousness
they were such polar opposites with their frequency (perception) and wave lengths (energy) that now instead of your soul resonating with love (meta)
its become that of Doubt which is the source of evil.
thinking from a literary standpoint,
Even in the garden of Eden, Eve had to doubt that she was complete with everything that she has. curiosity and the lust to be gluttonous came after from the doubt (incompleteness) that resonated within her. if she abandoned doubt, temptation would not befall her.
so you could say that yes woman are incomplete, they have a chalice where men have a phallic symbol (extra)
womans nature is to fill the incompleteness of their soul.
mans nature is to fit in with their excess in order to be complete.
the perceptions of reality show how they are parabolic of each other, but one is superior to the other cause it has something the other does not. you might think man and woman are different but they are still searching for the same thing
to be complete
by being complete and happy with yourself while expressing unconditional love your soul grows with the vibration of the universal consciousness.
you become with god. think about it.
Ive included as much as I could to help you find your own understanding as there as many many many parabolic inferences that could be made.
may you find the light from the darkness.
I hope and pray you will find it because I dont want want you to have to go on through pain and suffering.
the truth can and will drive you made if you dont remove the mentality that would let yourself become so (old perceptions)
listen, learn, accept, and love.
its about finding oneness, once you do so you feel driven to help existance.
thats why I believe you may have glimpsed the source but you do not speak of love. only of fate, destruction, superiority, hate, stubborness, death, violence, cycles, and other forms of evil.
may you find the light in the darkness and your misery be short
the thread is very interesting. atleast for as I fell the knowledge which is genuine and which is false, I know what they are thinking and the choices they will make. its like life the musical. haha
http://www.abovetopsecret.com/forum/viewthread.php?tid=438333&page=8#
He has viewed the ocean of perceptions and found the golden mean, or atleast what he believes to be that which he has found. hearing what he has claimed makes me believe he has found one part of its meaning. but because he cannot release his sins that lead him back into the cycle, he cannot come to a true understanding. he is satisfied with his perception and how it fits into others.
he looked for truth and since he believes he is part of something that he is bound to, he filled the incompleteness of his soul with pride of ancestry that he believes will make him man he has always wanted to be.
I believe he has tapped into the universal consciousness but because he still based his perception of happiness, which stems from the perception of how reality works.
the truth became convoluted between his old self (perceptions) and his new self that he was embracing but did not question and look for deeper meaning into to find the real reason because he was satisfied with the perception of reality that had been secured in his mind when he accepted this reality of other convoluted souls ,which he knew or believed to be right and knew the way of life. he did not want to be disappointed so kept his questions within a set parameter
now the search for meaning of life and reason for how existance works are filled with pride and self righteousness since he has been introduced to destiny. he thinks that even if I am wrong with my perceptions at this time I will learn and find deeper understanding through situational awareness.
he searches for a way to materialize and rectify his belief, such as getting attention with agreement/disagreement , belief of fate ( that he is destined to do so and is connected a life path.) therefore changing his souls frequency from openness to routine (which is hell, the beast, evil, etc)
he does not believe in the truth 100% basically, he can never get to it without unless he erases his perception and matches it completely with the universal consciousness
they were such polar opposites with their frequency (perception) and wave lengths (energy) that now instead of your soul resonating with love (meta)
its become that of Doubt which is the source of evil.
thinking from a literary standpoint,
Even in the garden of Eden, Eve had to doubt that she was complete with everything that she has. curiosity and the lust to be gluttonous came after from the doubt (incompleteness) that resonated within her. if she abandoned doubt, temptation would not befall her.
so you could say that yes woman are incomplete, they have a chalice where men have a phallic symbol (extra)
womans nature is to fill the incompleteness of their soul.
mans nature is to fit in with their excess in order to be complete.
the perceptions of reality show how they are parabolic of each other, but one is superior to the other cause it has something the other does not. you might think man and woman are different but they are still searching for the same thing
to be complete
by being complete and happy with yourself while expressing unconditional love your soul grows with the vibration of the universal consciousness.
you become with god. think about it.
Ive included as much as I could to help you find your own understanding as there as many many many parabolic inferences that could be made.
may you find the light from the darkness.
I hope and pray you will find it because I dont want want you to have to go on through pain and suffering.
the truth can and will drive you made if you dont remove the mentality that would let yourself become so (old perceptions)
listen, learn, accept, and love.
its about finding oneness, once you do so you feel driven to help existance.
thats why I believe you may have glimpsed the source but you do not speak of love. only of fate, destruction, superiority, hate, stubborness, death, violence, cycles, and other forms of evil.
may you find the light in the darkness and your misery be short
Saturday, April 11, 2009
thankyou god for the reassurence
my mind has been going through some radical changes and how it processes my thoughts.
well I was getting to a point where I was having to constantly face my inner demons and sort it our from my own will and it was destorted. how could I trust a source of knowledge that I felt was from an angel or god himself that was distorted with my thoughts.
I was still going to pursue the goal no matter what because even if It were all just in my head, the good that could be done by trying to save humanity would outway my own dilusions. my dilusions that made me think I was a vessle to send a message to humanity about something I knew about but didnt have a keen interest growing up. I always prayed and had hope but it was not logical to me that he would not stop the violence and suffering on earth.
I followed the path that I was guided through and actually tried to navigate through it for myself and everything made sense and fell into place.
I talked over the phone to a spiritualist, and was also with another girl I think named shawle or shaw. sorry bad memory, but she was supposed to be an elder as well.
they confirmed everything that I was going through by feeling what I was and what my spiritual name was. they all matched, EXACTLY as I knew they were.
its like in books or movies, the part where they are like
YOU ARE THE CHOSEN ONE!!!!!! =O
hahaha
sorry Im just so excited, I was starting to fall into depression because of the task I had to face alone, without anyone to even talk to about what was happening to me and what was going on for the human race.
I cant wait.
I wrote down that I would be ready april 14th a month ago, I LOVE IT!
thankyou god for the oppertunity you have handed down to me,
I am so greatful for my whole life, the good and the bad.
I am humble from the grandure of lifes beauty and I hope to make you proud.
please guide me and help me gain the strengh to fight my demons and act as a beacon of light and hope to those who need it.
I am moving forward and will strive to become the great man I need to become so others find the strengh and love in you as I have.
well I was getting to a point where I was having to constantly face my inner demons and sort it our from my own will and it was destorted. how could I trust a source of knowledge that I felt was from an angel or god himself that was distorted with my thoughts.
I was still going to pursue the goal no matter what because even if It were all just in my head, the good that could be done by trying to save humanity would outway my own dilusions. my dilusions that made me think I was a vessle to send a message to humanity about something I knew about but didnt have a keen interest growing up. I always prayed and had hope but it was not logical to me that he would not stop the violence and suffering on earth.
I followed the path that I was guided through and actually tried to navigate through it for myself and everything made sense and fell into place.
I talked over the phone to a spiritualist, and was also with another girl I think named shawle or shaw. sorry bad memory, but she was supposed to be an elder as well.
they confirmed everything that I was going through by feeling what I was and what my spiritual name was. they all matched, EXACTLY as I knew they were.
its like in books or movies, the part where they are like
YOU ARE THE CHOSEN ONE!!!!!! =O
hahaha
sorry Im just so excited, I was starting to fall into depression because of the task I had to face alone, without anyone to even talk to about what was happening to me and what was going on for the human race.
I cant wait.
I wrote down that I would be ready april 14th a month ago, I LOVE IT!
thankyou god for the oppertunity you have handed down to me,
I am so greatful for my whole life, the good and the bad.
I am humble from the grandure of lifes beauty and I hope to make you proud.
please guide me and help me gain the strengh to fight my demons and act as a beacon of light and hope to those who need it.
I am moving forward and will strive to become the great man I need to become so others find the strengh and love in you as I have.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
good vs evil
these past 2 days have been amazing, Ive been able to get back on track and in a mindset where I am discovering and progressing every min of the day.
I turned on the tv and it was current. I was relaxing because I needed to get back my mindset of being able to do anything, well luckily I turned on the tv to the hour long segment showing hate crimes. they were showing skin heads in Russia, they love to kill, punish and hurt others for no reason. they showed this huge group of skin heads led by a guy not more than 30 years old. they were in the forest and were training for the day when they would rise up and take over. they were shooting guns and running through obsticle courses that were rigged with fire, they would pour gasoline in their path while they would train.
their training was completely stupid but the fact that they were getting prepaired for an uprising that I have been getting prepaired for to stop, stuck me hard.
this one guy was proud of his violence and showed the videos that were on the internet and many others of random violence against people where they would go in large groups and gang up on someone just walking along. they showed many horrible things and I watched with my face filled with terror, hate, disgust, dissapointment, sadness, shame, and the will to go on with my dream of a peaceful united world.
no more of keeping this in my head. I must go out and actively recruit people that want to help my cause, to do good and save the world.
I am.... sad.
not at what I will do and the adventure that will ensue but for the ignorance of people such as the skin heads in russia.
I wish I had organized a group earlier. but it doesnt matter. I will continue and we will prevail
I turned on the tv and it was current. I was relaxing because I needed to get back my mindset of being able to do anything, well luckily I turned on the tv to the hour long segment showing hate crimes. they were showing skin heads in Russia, they love to kill, punish and hurt others for no reason. they showed this huge group of skin heads led by a guy not more than 30 years old. they were in the forest and were training for the day when they would rise up and take over. they were shooting guns and running through obsticle courses that were rigged with fire, they would pour gasoline in their path while they would train.
their training was completely stupid but the fact that they were getting prepaired for an uprising that I have been getting prepaired for to stop, stuck me hard.
this one guy was proud of his violence and showed the videos that were on the internet and many others of random violence against people where they would go in large groups and gang up on someone just walking along. they showed many horrible things and I watched with my face filled with terror, hate, disgust, dissapointment, sadness, shame, and the will to go on with my dream of a peaceful united world.
no more of keeping this in my head. I must go out and actively recruit people that want to help my cause, to do good and save the world.
I am.... sad.
not at what I will do and the adventure that will ensue but for the ignorance of people such as the skin heads in russia.
I wish I had organized a group earlier. but it doesnt matter. I will continue and we will prevail
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