danny hedger said that he came to my house... he cornered me and I got away but he is trying to be with me. he came in on me while I was sleeping aswell.. I am concerned.

he is my friends dad, my friend is joe hedger.

this is incase something happens...

I dont want to hurt him because I cant take out joe's provider...
sucks

to the futrue

it is thurday 11;30 pm ..
as I sit here watching who's line is it anyways fat from hot cocoa donuts and cookies.. high and relieved of almost all my pain with my current pills from my wisdome teeth surgery..
I Have everything...
It feels like a unique cornerstone of my life.
I wonder .. how long can this last? what will the future bring?
will everything just get better and I will not even have to do a thing?
or are these days of full bellys coming to a end?
I want to do so much.. but all I do in the end is eat.. eat because I cannot do anything else and I crave for life..
I cannot say I despair even though I do ... I have it all so to speak.. memories of extrordinary events.. of having a purpose and chosing not to ... or atleast not at the moment..

..I feel something about may ... I dont like it..

christmas

kodac hd camera

what do I feel like doing?.... Ideas..

fixing a room in a the house where I can be completely satisfied with how it looks.
setup fishtank
replant plant
clean and organize my roomj

18:53	mib_v38brx	hello
18:53	leodragon	Hello.
18:53	mib_v38brx	nice someone is around
18:54	mib_v38brx	is this a good place to learn and discuss energy theories and applications?
18:54	mib_v38brx	is this an active chatroom?
18:54	leodragon	I don't deal with energetic models.
18:54	leodragon	Yes, it is an active chat room. Everyone is just a way at the moment.
18:55	mib_v38brx	ok
18:55	leodragon	You might want to change your nick by typing /nick and whatever name you want.
18:55		*** mib_v38brx is now known as drewschkelton
18:55	leodragon	How are you?
18:55	drewschkelton	im feeling good how about yourself
18:56	leodragon	Tired.
18:56	leodragon	Long day at work.
18:57	drewschkelton	doesn't sound like much fun
18:57	leodragon	drewschkelton, this is a good place to discuss parapsychological models and theories.
18:58	drewschkelton	cool
18:58	leodragon	How is the weather in Texas?
18:59	leodragon	It is 30 something degrees, here.
18:59	drewschkelton	its ok, dark and misty outside..
18:59		leodragon hates the cold
18:59	drewschkelton	are you in the usa or canada
18:59	drewschkelton	and btw how did you know that I am in texas
19:00	leodragon	US, and I am the site admin.
19:00	leodragon	I can see where anyone accessing the site is from.
19:00	drewschkelton	interesting
19:00	drewschkelton	so do you know my relative or exact location?
19:01	leodragon	We have trolls that use proxies.
19:01	leodragon	I always check new people out.
19:01	drewschkelton	I assure you that I am no troll
19:02	drewschkelton	how long have you been around on psionslair?
19:02	leodragon	Latitude: 29.7044 Longitude: -98.0742
19:02	leodragon	Around on psionslair?
19:02	drewschkelton	yeah, or this chat I mean..
19:03	drewschkelton	I accessed this chat from the website
19:03	leodragon	Are you asking how long I have been a member?
19:03	drewschkelton	yeah pretty much
19:04	drewschkelton	Im curious how long you have been chatting/server admin on this chat
19:04	leodragon	This site has been around for going on two years and I am the owner.
19:04	drewschkelton	nice
19:04	leodragon	I am the channel admin and not a server operator.
19:06	leodragon	By the way, my connection is buggy.
19:06	leodragon	If I quit, or ping out, I will be back in a minute once it reconnects.
19:07	drewschkelton	its cool I understand
19:08	leodragon	I focus more on parapsychology and science over metaphysics, though, but all views are welcome. I just can't speak on it, though, or contribute anything, in that way because that is not what I research.
19:09	leodragon	It is kind of like going to a science class for a lecture on theology.
19:09	drewschkelton	gotchya
19:10	drewschkelton	I work the same way but I dont really recognize too much of a difference between metaphysics and parapsychology
19:10	leodragon	There is a big one.
19:10	drewschkelton	oh yeah
19:10	leodragon	Parapsychology uses logically empirical approaches whereas metaphysics is non empircal by nature.
19:11	drewschkelton	ah
19:11	leodragon	This is what separates science from metaphysics.
19:13	leodragon	Empirical evidence is evidence that can be detected in which the quantification can be correlated with some form of objective criteria (measurements).
19:13	drewschkelton	well good then I wont be hearing you talk about consciousness shifts and metaphysic jargon
19:13	leodragon	You don't like that?
19:14	drewschkelton	thats why I am unclear.. Ive been able to establish a system to pretty much correlate metaphysic theorys..
19:14	leodragon	LOL
19:14	drewschkelton	I dont like what I have heard others talk about...
19:14	drewschkelton	like shiny metalic aura sensations from the heart through a computer reading
19:14	leodragon	There are logical correlations with metaphysics, it can be pretty logical, but metaphysical philosophy, by nature, is non empirical.
19:15	drewschkelton	thats an example of what a psychic said in a reading last night..
19:16	leodragon	drewschkelton, you should my newest article.
19:16	drewschkelton	I beleive I understand the differences of the two now, thanks to you ^^
19:16	leodragon	http://psionslair.co.cc/index.php/telepathy-articles/1-telepathy-articles/93-learning-telepathy-and-semantic-information.html
19:17	leodragon	Psychic experiences, on the subjective level, are often times tacit (can only be known through experience) and ineffable (hard or almost impossible to describe).
19:18	leodragon	I go into how psychic experiences can be related to semantic information in that article.
19:19	leodragon	Semantic, in this context, means the explicit meaning.
19:19	leodragon	Explicit meaning is not transferred in ESP unless it is learned. This also poses a problem when trying to semantically relay the information.
19:20	leodragon	In other words, the person could have been getting accurate information but unable to understand or relay it.
19:21	leodragon	Does that make sense to you?
19:22	drewschkelton	yes this does
19:22	drewschkelton	I read your article, you have a good understanding of how it works
19:23	drewschkelton	do you think that readings done over the internet are true?
19:24	leodragon	Psychic abilities seem to be invariant and not effected by space or time, so, yes, it is possible for a person to sense you online, but this does not say anything about the validity of the person.
19:25	drewschkelton	true
19:25	leodragon	Yes, people can drive cars but this does not mean that everyone can drive a car.
19:25	drewschkelton	yep
19:26	drewschkelton	im curious about the preciseness of reading online compaired to meeting somoene in person
19:26	leodragon	It would be lower.
19:27	leodragon	Not to mention you would not have as much control in regards to protocol.
19:27	drewschkelton	sure but then are people making inferences based on physical appearence?
19:27	leodragon	The best way to test this would be to create a boundary of no contact, what so ever, with the person.
19:27	leodragon	If you can not see the person, or know the person, you can not make inferences about it.
19:27	drewschkelton	but if they are feeling the energy then they should project themselves in whatever form they may be in.. if that is a chatroom or whatever
19:28	leodragon	I don't know about that. I don't do energy.
19:29	drewschkelton	ok fair enough
19:29	drewschkelton	im supprised that you dont do that sort of thing.. you the right information about how it works..
19:29	leodragon	Do what sort of thing?
19:30	drewschkelton	well the energy stuff..
19:30	drewschkelton	are you a psychic?
19:30	drewschkelton	or a curious induvidual?
19:30	leodragon	I have psychic abilities that I have honed into skills, yes.
19:30	drewschkelton	cool
19:31	leodragon	Psi is the function in which an organism can interact with pragmatic information beyond its physical boundaries.
19:32	leodragon	Information is a description of a thing, or knowledge of that thing, and pragmatic information is the impact of that information on the systems, itself, within a time interval.
19:33	leodragon	An organism can interact with the pragmatic information of a thing in terms of physical points or conceptual (psychological) points via psi.
19:33	leodragon	Conceptual is an abstract noun for what could be called thoughts.
19:34	drewschkelton	nice definition there
19:34		leodragon is taking care to avoid theories
19:34	drewschkelton	^^
19:35	leodragon	You can look at the research sections of the site for the theories. I am just stating what is known.
19:36	leodragon	What is known is that there seems to be a function which allows for pragmatic information to be exchanged between an organism and its known physical boundaries.
19:36	leodragon	What is known is that there seems to be a function which allows for pragmatic information to be exchanged between an organism and its environment* beyond and its known physical boundaries.*
19:36	Numbers	leodragon
19:36	leodragon	Hey, Numbers.
19:36	Numbers	I think I over done myself
19:37	Numbers	What happens when you give a year to allow things to take effect?
19:37	leodragon	I don't know.
19:37	Numbers	Overwhelming Snowstorm and lethal weather over most of canada
19:37	Numbers	There was snow over the last 2 days in some places than what they usually get all month this month
19:38	Numbers	And there is gonna be lots of rain in the forecast and the snow is blocking the drains
19:38		leodragon told you about messing with the weather
19:38	drewschkelton	lol
19:38	Numbers	ironically there is no snow here XD
19:39		leodragon is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO tired
19:40	leodragon	Numbers, do you think I should put the wiki back up on the site?
19:40	drewschkelton	it snowed in texas a week ago >.> and people still think global warming is fake... (ive been told that the ice burg about to recreate titanic in austrailia is CG....O_O)
19:40	leodragon	drewschkelton, the argument with global is not if its fake but if its because of us.
19:40	Numbers	Lol Numbers vs Global Warning
19:40	leodragon	Evidence suggests that global worming may be natural.
19:40	leodragon	warming*
19:41	leodragon	Of course, what we are doing speeding it up.
19:41	leodragon	Of course, what we are doing is speeding it up, though.*
19:42	leodragon	To be honest, I am more interested in replicating that result with teleportation I got, consistently, over weather manipulation, LOL.
19:42	drewschkelton	sure but we have evidence of toxic atmosphere changes back to when the dinosaurs died out which correlate to global warming theorys... but yes we are speeding it up cause those same glacier records are now being melted...
19:42	leodragon	I just don't have any time.
19:42	drewschkelton	you... teleported something?
19:43	leodragon	drewschkelton, that is the least of our concerns.
19:43	leodragon	If the frozen methane deposits in the ocean mealt, we are screwed.
19:43	leodragon	drewschkelton, yes.
19:43	leodragon	Nothing big, though.
19:43	leodragon	A crayon pencil.
19:43	drewschkelton	did you do this with a machine or yourself?
19:44	leodragon	I used psychokinesis.
19:44	drewschkelton	im impressed
19:45	drewschkelton	did you document how this was done?
19:45	leodragon	What do you mean?
19:45	drewschkelton	in writing, do you describe your methods
19:45	leodragon	The dynamic is the same as typical psychokinesis, in relation to motion, except the location of the object is changed over its motion.
19:46	leodragon	http://psionslair.co.cc/index.php/telepathy-articles/3-psychokinesis-articles/79-applying-the-dynamics-of-psychokinesis.html
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19:52	drewschkelton	so did you will it to be in another location? could you see the location that you wanted it to go to? did you replace where you perceived the crayon to be?
19:52	leodragon2	I got disconnected.
19:52	leodragon2	<@leodragon> What happened is that the mechanism responsible patterned/injected information in terms of what outcome was so desired and inserted it into what could be called a gap in time which could be described as pure potential in such a way that the initial point, in that physical system, that coalesced that potential into a pool of probable choices in what is called the wave function.
19:52	drewschkelton	its cool, nothing was said before you left
19:53	leodragon2	The information pertaining to the outcome of the pencil being somewhere else was injected into a future point in such a way that it became a probability.
19:53	leodragon2	The probability was then selected as the thing that did happen as a result of entanglement.
19:54	drewschkelton	so this was done with will power and not directly guiding it. more of willing it to happen there and then it happend based on what needed to be done for it to get there
19:54	leodragon2	No, I did not see the location, and the mechanism for PK IS correlated with will, but it seems that there is more than that.
19:54		*** leodragon2 is now known as leodragon
19:54	leodragon	That was part of it.
19:54	leodragon	`op leodragon
19:54		+++ ChanServ has given op to leodragon
19:56	leodragon	Basically, the pencil was at x location instead of y because in the new time line it was never in y.
19:56	leodragon	It had always been in x.
19:57	leodragon	Or, entanglement between the present-future moment and the future moment caused some unknown physical process to transport the pencil to the new location...
19:58	drewschkelton	fascinating
19:58	Maeror	thats not kinisis really, more future selection
19:58	drewschkelton	seems like law of attraction to me
19:59	Maeror	kinisis is movement, in your discription in reality the pencil never moved
19:59	leodragon	Maeror, Numbers is goona beat you up :p
19:59	leodragon	gonna*
19:59		Numbers gets his trusty crowbar
19:59	Maeror	:P
19:59	leodragon	Or, entanglement between the present-future moment and the future moment caused some unknown physical process to transport the pencil to the new location...<---------------
20:00	leodragon	This is ONE postulation.
20:00	Maeror	or the time line was altered so the pencil was there all the time, in which case no movement
20:00	leodragon	Could be either.
20:00	leodragon	We don't know.
20:00	Maeror	so why call it kinisis!
20:00	leodragon	We could get into a conversation about qualifiers.
20:01	Numbers	Kinesis
20:01	Maeror	fits even better under the qualifiction o constructs
20:01	leodragon	It is assumed, but not proven, that the mechanism for psi is spatiotemporally invariant. It could be, which would make that model wrong.
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20:02	leodragon	It is assumed, because this postulation best currently describes and replicates what has been observed, but this only makes it true within the realm of what is currently known.
20:02	leodragon	We could discover new information about psi which throws it out the window...
20:03	drewschkelton	so how did you eliminate the thought that the crayon was in location y before location x?
20:03	drewschkelton	you must have had perceived that what you wanted to already be there was in this location
20:03	leodragon	Psi implies spatiotemporal independence but does not prove it. Such a model, as proposed above, would only work in the case of it being of an a casual nature. I consider it because it seems best to describe it, for now.
20:04	leodragon	drewschkelton, I entered the weird state of mind that I normally do for PK.
20:04	drewschkelton	you must have perceived that where you wanted the crayon to be was already there
20:04	leodragon	That was part of it.
20:05	sephy|phone	heya
20:05	drewschkelton	hehe you must be pretty good at this stuff...
20:06	drewschkelton	hi sephyphone
20:06	leodragon	Good but uncontrolled.
20:06	leodragon	My PK is erratic.
20:06	leodragon	Even the crayon did not teleport where I wanted to.
20:07	sephy|phone	also, leodragon, I spoke to JoeT, he picked up PK because of the OEC, he had no experience beforehand
20:07	leodragon	I find that hard to believe.
20:07	drewschkelton	sure that will come with more practice.. but still you can turn on and off that frame of mind without abandoning your empirical sense of what is.. to me that is really something
20:08	leodragon	LOL
20:08	leodragon	drewschkelton, I never turn that off.
20:08	drewschkelton	^^ even better to still keep to your logic.. fascinating
20:08	leodragon	A lot of metaphysical paths teach manipulation of the objective world through the subjective world by the objective being a form of the subjective.
20:09	leodragon	I understand that the world around me is objective, but I also understand that, somehow, an aspect of my consciousness is able to exert an influence on it. don't deny the reality of the state of the object. 20:11 leodragon I just focus on the state that I wish to exert on the object much like you don't deny the reality of an apple when you pluck it off a tree. You just wish to exert a force on the apple by picking it with your hand. 20:11 drewschkelton are you socially isolated? how do you keep this frame of mind in the midst of all these... ..um ... blind people.. 20:12 leodragon Socially isolated? 20:12 drewschkelton yeah 20:12 leodragon Defined. 20:12 leodragon define* 20:13 drewschkelton well.. do you spend most of your time alone.. you say you work but do you decide to go hangout with friends after or just come home 20:13 leodragon I work, go to school, spend time with some friends, and hang out with my boyfriend. 20:13 leodragon The friends are generally co workers. 20:14 drewschkelton interesting 20:14 leodragon I am in the last semester for my Bachelors of Science Biology degree. 20:15 drewschkelton for me its hard to keep my perspective with people cause I watch them stumble into a conversation that I already know is going to come up and I cant really connect to their reality... 20:15 leodragon I don't know what you mean. 20:16 leodragon A research article on what was just discussed: http://psionslair.co.cc/index.php/psi-research-articles/8-research-articles/84-an-exploration-of-core-power-of-thought-concepts-in-relation-to-theories-involving-quantum-mechanics.html 20:16 drewschkelton well.. I used to be very sensitive.. so much to where I would feel a itch on myself but then I would scratch myself in the same place where someone else would scratch.. or say things at the same time... more than repeatedly.. and just know what topics are going to come up in a conversation before a conversation even happens.. 20:17 leodragon In the formulation above, we clearly see the injection of consciousness occurring at Process Zero, which leads to initial limits that coalesce a set of possible choices (Process 1) and are finally selected between by the collapse of the wave (Process 3). Taken in total, we see action by an intelligent agent that produces feedback. 20:19 sephy|phone leodragon, I picked up Entangled Minds by Dean Radin today 20:19 leodragon His books bore me, to be honest. 20:20 leodragon He presents a lot of data without ever really going into the meaning of it. His books are more aimed at skeptics than pro ponent. 20:20 sephy|phone nods 20:22 sephy|phone It does answer some questions though, also, I plan to lend it to a few friends of mine, so I can discuss psi with them 20:22 *** leodragon2 joined #psionslair 20:22 leodragon2 <@leodragon> People who know stats, or research methods, would find it very boring. 20:22 leodragon2 <@leodragon> It also opens him up for a lot of flack, for stats only show correlations between structures but they can not go into the why's. 20:22 leodragon2 It leaves him wide open to criticism about his experimental technique. 20:23 *** leodragon quit (Killed (NickServ (KILL requested by leodragon2))) 20:23 *** leodragon2 is now known as leodragon 20:23 leodragon `op leodragon 20:23 +++ ChanServ has given op to leodragon 20:23 drewschkelton *headshot 20:23 drewschkelton ^^ 20:23 leodragon got disconnected 20:24 Numbers Honestly I would converse but I have no responses 20:24 leodragon Not to mention the Law of Large numbers has a huge impact in RNG's built on quantum mechanics. 20:25 sephy|phone from what I can tell (half way through), it mostly justs acts as a counter-argument to alot of the skeptical thought about psi, and that saves me alot of explaining myself to people 20:25 leodragon Basically, while there IS a degree of uncertainty/entropy in quantum systems, the whole of a group of sub atomic particles is determined, already, by quanitization via entanglement. 20:26 leodragon sephy|phone, think of it this way. 20:26 leodragon I tell you can have $10 in change in any combination of nickles, dimes, quarters, or pennies. 20:26 leodragon You can have ANY amount of those bits of change, BUT it has to equal $10. 20:27 leodragon Understand? 20:27 sephy|phone I understand that 20:27 leodragon So, while there IS uncertainity within quantum systems, it is negligible when looked at from the dynamocs of a group or whole. 20:28 leodragon The value of the whole would cause the discrete packets of quanta to have to equal out making it so that totally entropic processes become negentropic due to entanglement. 20:28 leodragon The entire premise of RNG's is that they are random.