Sunday, March 8, 2009

I enjoy my work but hate to work.....im a laziholic

yeah Im pretty damn lazy...
I was thinkin I should post my recent thoughts and theory but then I saw all the other post I didnt put up.

Ive put them up and down so much. because I was afraid of what others would think of me. or If i said all these theorys and then when the time came they actually dont come into existance and I am made to look like a fool ( im not risking being wrong just because Im afraid of the Will power of others). you know what I just dont care, Im here help people, not appear as a Idol like jesus did with his perfection. nope... sadly people try to be perfect and they dont know understand what perfect is or the real reason they really strive to be perfection.

that was not put into words correctly but no matter

this is mostly just a little side note.

oh yeah, I read up on this fascinating woman named Helena Blavatsky, and I think im a theosophist, but still retain the morals and beliefs of other religions, I need to figure out my own name for my way of life that encompases MY beliefs since they are blended with all and cant be labled with anything of existance that I know of.
I dont mean making a new religion cause thats not what I want to do because religion tells people that their god/ways are right and all others are wrong,
people use a rule for how they live their life, one of the best but missinterpretable is the golden rule. because it could be used as a rule for selfish reasons such as that If you give to someone you should expect for them to give to you, then you are dissapointed with the results of others morals and you throw away yours for the morals of others around you because its more comfortable because IT actually works and is based on how the world works in its current state, which is not a good one.
but If you view the golden rule with optimism and faith that just because you give to someone and they dont give back doesnt mean you dont gain something else.... such as good will to others and unconditional love ( where the act of expressing love to others is rewarding enough, and everything else is just gravy)

see my dilemia?! no matter what something may stand for you can still have the uneducated masses missinterpret its true meaning...

the kind of knowedge that I have is not meant for the uneducated masses.

so I was reading upon old masters who knew what I know now , aristotle, plato, socrates, jesus, buddah, nostradamus, and SOO many others that became the old masters that you hear of in stories with the long beards that asked questions to stir the truth in others so that they realize it for themselves and know that it is true...... gandolf, hahaha merlin, shittt...
wise men..
and they would tell me the information I needed to know( ofcourse in parabols that I could clearly see) but only because I understood the ways of spirit.

I was learning more on astrology and was looking for people that had the same astrological problems as I do and used their wisdom to help me figure out what I should do. and I saw this written by Helena Blavatsky...

Section 5

THE FUNDAMENTAL TEACHINGS OF THEOSOPHY


ENQUIRER. But why, in that case, do Buddhism and Christianity represent the two opposite poles of such belief?

THEOSOPHIST. Because the conditions under which they were preached were not the same. In India the Brahmins, jealous of their superior knowledge, and excluding from it every caste save their own, had driven millions of men into idolatry and almost fetishism. Buddha had to give the death-blow to an exuberance of unhealthy fancy and fanatical superstition resulting from ignorance, such as has rarely been known before or after. Better a philosophical atheism than such ignorant worship for those --

"Who cry upon their gods and are not heard,

Or are not heeded --"

and who live and die in mental despair. He had to arrest first of all this muddy torrent of superstition, to uproot errors before he gave out the truth. And as he could not give out all for the same good reason as Jesus, who reminds his disciples that the Mysteries of Heaven are not for the unintelligent masses, but for the elect alone, and therefore "spake he to them in parables" (Matt. xiii. 11) -- so his caution led Buddha to conceal too much. He even refused to say to the monk Vacchagotta whether there was, or was not an Ego in man. When pressed to answer, "the Exalted one maintained silence." (5)

gifts

I have yet to tell anyone of a particular gift that I was born with. Now its manifesting itself and it amazes me everyday.
I can see without actually seeing. I can feel any situation present past and future as If I was there. but it doesnt consist of solid images but emotions, body sensation, sensation in my thinking almost like a mental pleasure or light bulb that goes on.
I feel existance of matter. basically I can feel the energy of objects around me and If I concentrate on something I can locate and feel where it would be or where its presence has influence over and what area.

Ive become fully aware of the ability this year, but I have been using it my whole life as I questioned situations through empathy.

I wont publish this for sometime as I need to train my talent. But I know that there are others in the world that have abilities like mine and I need to find them and spread my message of love and spirituality.

this is so fantastically unreal... It feels like im in some fantasy world now, instead of the boring life I used to have.

Its like Im on one of those epics that we read/watch.. im so giddy , the magic of finding the meaning of life and then being shown a divine mission and then being able to embark on this spiritual epic. UGHHHHH HECK YESSSS!!!!

I cant wait for others to start discovering their spiritual gifts..... everything that has been imagined in novels and mobies could potentially come true. its as if our world and the spiritual world are being merged together. but through interpretation you govern how the merge will work. will you be suffocated by hellfire on the date of 2012 because you believe that will transpire or will you believe that it will be a spiritual awakening with the arrival of gifts and higher existance manifested......
that means if the will power of all of humanity is focused on the world ending then it will but those who believe it wont and have will power that is above human will then it wont for that group of like minded people.
but if people believe in good and that when the galactic waves pour over our part of the universe that we will evolve we will.

seriously this is the time to realize your destiny

thats why I was told so send a message to humanity... but if people dont believe in the message then mabye it was supposed to be passed on to the next civilization that comes about after our existance. Kinda like how the maya set up the mayan calander. As they knew what was to come but yet they are all gone and now WE are interpreting it to show us the future.....
no matter what transpires here on earth I will send a message to civilization/humanity of love, peace and spirituality.
I just have to put my will into my message and my will must be absolute


this place is so amazing that I cant figure out if we are in a universe that is mostly ruled by hell or by heaven.