hey I know you

well Ive taken my journals I wrote in the past day because someone is gonna blabber when they read the journals, or so my trusted source tells me... and so far it has not been wrong in the least way.
So.
Hi....
leave a comment.
I was told that someone related to today
was going to blab out about my research.
but I need help. Ive been figuring stuff out.
can you help me out by assistance or will you hinder me with closed minds.
its worth a shot.
I need a mentor.

well it happened. It sucks. I tried so hard to stop it from happening here that I was too short tempered with my mom who at the moment is the only way I can get around because I cant get a license. well she was just being a complete bitch but she sees my passion for this as being selfish because she cant spend everyday with her boys cause I need food and pens and other stuff.
I am sad but It was about time to end the relation with my mother.
now I myself must push past my safety zone and ask for people to pick me up and drive me around.
If I didnt have this mission I would have nothing but sad memories of the ones I loved.
but today is a new day! I must push to be heard! on the will of my own, with my mindset focused on helping others such as my mom who cant help them selfs be better people.
I will now post most of all my old journals