a new word that I learned..

Limerence

Ive harbored this emotion for a very long time. I had limerence of love that I dont beleive exist in this world... so I thought to myself... I would get off this rock and find it... I knew it exist.. I just need to get there.. I have the knowledge to actually do it some day... but for now its out of reach..
but I still organized myself towards this goal while in actuality I should have pursued a love life closer to earth..

now that I am reading about this emotion I am better able to identify and fix this problem. there is nothing wrong with intense emotions, but when they become unreasonable and stop you from acheiving and even doing things in life is where it becomes a problem.