questions after lesson learned

why do we feel the need to best people?

what is worth?

what is love?

how can one judge value?

why do we seek to be loved?

what would people seek if they had no pleasure? growth? why?

is love growth?

how does universal growth work?

if love could be logically explained. would there still be pleasure in love or do we seek the unknown?

does death give meaning to love? I dont think so
or does the unexplained mystery of life give meaning to death?

could reward be simply duality, yes/or no? with or without?

then how could someone be happy giving away what they have? charity?
could it derive from the givers memory of receiving?
what would happen if someone was never given anything?
would someone in complete isolation from everything be happy with giving?

could knowledge be rewarding enough?

is knowledge experience through duality of yes and no?

can doubt elimanate the reward of knowledge?

so life without reward would lead the occupier of doubt into cycles of uncertaincy which would leave them blind to their true happiness?

if they subsitute their original happiness, do they truly forget what made them happy?

but if happiness comes from experiences already perceived then they would always chase the original value of percieved happiness?

so is growth love?

if happiness can be percieved and imagined then is it the knowledge that it is not a lasting experience which keeps us searching for our dreams?

we desire stability but yet growth,
what is stabile growth? phi?

is Phi the archetype of/for perfection?