thankyou god for the reassurence

my mind has been going through some radical changes and how it processes my thoughts.
well I was getting to a point where I was having to constantly face my inner demons and sort it our from my own will and it was destorted. how could I trust a source of knowledge that I felt was from an angel or god himself that was distorted with my thoughts.

I was still going to pursue the goal no matter what because even if It were all just in my head, the good that could be done by trying to save humanity would outway my own dilusions. my dilusions that made me think I was a vessle to send a message to humanity about something I knew about but didnt have a keen interest growing up. I always prayed and had hope but it was not logical to me that he would not stop the violence and suffering on earth.

I followed the path that I was guided through and actually tried to navigate through it for myself and everything made sense and fell into place.

I talked over the phone to a spiritualist, and was also with another girl I think named shawle or shaw. sorry bad memory, but she was supposed to be an elder as well.

they confirmed everything that I was going through by feeling what I was and what my spiritual name was. they all matched, EXACTLY as I knew they were.
its like in books or movies, the part where they are like
YOU ARE THE CHOSEN ONE!!!!!! =O
hahaha
sorry Im just so excited, I was starting to fall into depression because of the task I had to face alone, without anyone to even talk to about what was happening to me and what was going on for the human race.

I cant wait.
I wrote down that I would be ready april 14th a month ago, I LOVE IT!
thankyou god for the oppertunity you have handed down to me,
I am so greatful for my whole life, the good and the bad.
I am humble from the grandure of lifes beauty and I hope to make you proud.
please guide me and help me gain the strengh to fight my demons and act as a beacon of light and hope to those who need it.
I am moving forward and will strive to become the great man I need to become so others find the strengh and love in you as I have.