nice quote that I made on relationships

but just remember to not put too much on where it can go but rather where we ARE going

a poem I made on the fly for a sad person

when I think of thee, and you yearning for me I see a sea, a sea of dreams.
as I dream of thee, to be with me, together, forever, still unknown but heart felt more

It was gonna be a joke going into blood ocean.. from dethkloc
but I kinda just went with it and it sounded sweet and I didnt feel like messing it up

I was looking up prokaryotic bacteria cells and found binary fission. Ive always known about it but didnt know what it was called. these.. prokaryotic bacteria cells are fascinating to me. I would like to engineer some bacteria cells sometime for some beneficial purpose. seems like it would be a amazing thing to do.. create and design life

donate.. to me

interesting chat

şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: alexis got me up at 6am
Dolphins "Я" Us: Ohh that sucks. I'ma sleep soon too.
Dolphins "Я" Us: Adam! <3333333333
lovesJarod: <33
Dolphins "Я" Us: Is Jen at work?
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: yeah
Dolphins "Я" Us: Be back in a half hour or so. Gonna eat breakfast and wash my work clothes.
ashleydanielle_: hey everyone.
ashleydanielle_: Good Lord, everyone's sleeping on their webcam lol.
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drewschkelton: lol right?!
drewschkelton: its the oh look at me sleep channel
ashleydanielle_: Lol.
ashleydanielle_: Whats up drew?
drewschkelton: sleepin
drewschkelton: my nips look huge on cap
drewschkelton: cam
drewschkelton: you liek?
ashleydanielle_: Lol you look awake to me.
ashleydanielle_: ROFL that was random!
drewschkelton: lol yeah
ashleydanielle_: So your name is Drew right? lol.
drewschkelton: yeah... well andrew
ashleydanielle_: Cool. Are you gay or bi?
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drewschkelton: bi
drewschkelton: but mostly on the gay side
drewschkelton: how about yourself?
ashleydanielle_: Oh. I'm bi.
drewschkelton: nice
ashleydanielle_: Yup.
drewschkelton: you should join us on cam
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drewschkelton: welcome
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ashleydanielle_: There you go Drew...I look like a mess.
drewschkelton: ya got bed head but so do i =D
ashleydanielle_: Lol yeah I do...
ashleydanielle_: Morning Amber. lol.
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: my bestie awake?~
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: ?!
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: *hugs my best*
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: yeah
ashleydanielle_: She kinda is I think lol.
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: *hug*
ashleydanielle_: I'm not gonna be on much longer.
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: ADAM <333
lovesJarod: <333
ashleydanielle_: Morning Adam lol.
lovesJarod: hi ash morning
ashleydanielle_: How are ya?
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no name: mornig people-
no name: sp?
no name: sup*?
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drewschkelton: nothin much
Dolphins "Я" Us: Amber! <33333333
drewschkelton: chillin chillin
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: michael <33333333333333
no name: uhmmm
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Dolphins "Я" Us: Goodnight. :)
no name: good night?
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: goodnight michael
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: drew, u looked like u were blow jobbing something.
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: night michael. sleep well.
drewschkelton: lol
Dolphins "Я" Us: Yes. I've been up since 2:00
Dolphins "Я" Us: Ty
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şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: how do u fel best?
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: hungry
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: ,me too
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: but alex wont let me eat yet lol
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: it makes me laugh when i hear that a 2 year old runs ur life
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: i know@!!
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: it wakes up the whole house
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şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: even in the morning after jen gets hyer ready for work
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şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: look how close they are to the tv
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: video laggggggg
drewschkelton: LOLwtf
drewschkelton: get them away from that
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: i'll see it sooner or later
Dolphins "Я" Us: Holy shit.
Dolphins "Я" Us: Why does anyone need to be that close?
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: look at them dance
drewschkelton: omg
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: awww
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: yay for 2yr olds haha
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: i just asked forest "i wonder what they see twhen theyre that close"
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: i redocked so i missed how close they were to te tv but i can only assume from pass experiences they were close
drewschkelton: I want kids so bad! .. shitty thing about being gay
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: they prolly like the colors.
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: one is my girlfriend's daughter
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: and the other is our room mates daughter
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: yaaay amber u get to help me take care of them in feb lol
drewschkelton: ah
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: ohhh yay so excited
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: adreanna is adorable.. alex is just something else.
hornii15musa: any guys wanna talk?
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: you plan on having kids drew?
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: hahaha
drewschkelton: hell yeah
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: me too. i told jen "i want a kid"
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: and she said "i better know way ahead of time before u make one"
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: "esp if im in germany, ill be pissed"
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: hahaha
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şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: u should hear age ay "shots shots shots everyboddddyyyy"
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: wait. watch them drop it low
drewschkelton: rofl!
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: g at&t
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: tv got attention
drewschkelton: see kids are cute when they are like that.. its when they are not ....
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: oh jen's daughter is trouble..
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şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: reason why we didnt take her bowling last night. coz she's in everyone's lane
drewschkelton: I bet .. they look like a handful
drewschkelton: lol
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: theyre amazing though
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drewschkelton: she's a mavric
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sissy1235: hey
drewschkelton: she's hating on me!!
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: lol
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: im prolly gonna fall back asleep best for a lil longer
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şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: shes upset lol
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: ok best go fr it. mute me.. alex might yell. lol
Dolphins "Я" Us: Brb. Needa restart my comp for some stupid updates and then I'm officially gonna sleep.
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drewschkelton: ok dolhins r us guy.. take care
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: i odnt think i hit 8 hours yet so i need one or two more
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: according to aim i need 2 more
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: :okie best. sleep well *hugs*
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: so drew. are u a psycho/creeper on here or are u "real"? lol
drewschkelton: take care amber
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: hug <3 u
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: <3 u too best
drewschkelton: im real
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: what are u blowing on thten? lol
drewschkelton: a bong but Idont want t o soke in front of the kids
drewschkelton: see im that real
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: best u make me laugh
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: a bong.. this early? lol
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drewschkelton: hell yeah wake and bake
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: haha i dont wanna befriend a creeper thats wqhy lol
drewschkelton: actually I woke up at 5 am all sick and shit.. so I made some tea and hit the bong thinking I would sleep
drewschkelton: but I stayed up.. chillin and realaxing
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: ah icic
drewschkelton: ah
drewschkelton: no .. Im not creeper.
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: i usually just "wang" then fall back assleep. haha
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: if my best reads that
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şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: hshe'll prolly giggle
drewschkelton: whats wang?
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: take a wild guesss haha
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: hahaha i do that too except for days like today
drewschkelton: dwhat
drewschkelton: I think I know but could you spell it out?
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: i wanged last night
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: take a guess ill tell u if ur right. and best go night night
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: i wanged yesterday morning since jen kept touching me while i was sleeping but she suppoedly doensnt remember
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: soo.. i had to wang =/
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╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: i think its funny u stil have to wang even while LIVING with jen
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drewschkelton: oh I C
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: she likes to tease me!
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: and omg last night was funny..
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: causei was trying to sleep.. and then she elbowed my eye..
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: then i woke up HONY
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: soo.. i was like teasing.. and then she said "baby... i have work tomorrow"
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: and i said "plssss can i have u" but i said it in a baby voice. hahahaha
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╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: so is like elbowing ur eye a turn on for you?!?
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: well i woke up from a dream im guessing hahaha
drewschkelton: I love it ^^
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: thennn.. yea. then we went back to sleep lol
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: best stop reading coz you wont be able to sleep
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: my stories are just entertaining lol
Dolphins "Я" Us: *elbows Air in the eye*
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: they are so just stop telling ones i havent heard
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: michael.. u want me to go down on u huh?
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: talk about that "ewww" girl so i can not want to read
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: coz thats what jen got when she elbowed my eye hahaha
Dolphins "Я" Us: Hell yeah baby! :P
drewschkelton: lol
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: i may be with agirl.. but ive given a guy head before
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: wasnt the greatest thing ijn the world.. but ill make an exception for u michael
Dolphins "Я" Us: Mmmmh. Hot.
Dolphins "Я" Us: *elbows Air harder*
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: hahahahaha
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: go to sleep michael. go cuddle with amber
Dolphins "Я" Us: Ok!
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: and adam
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: and corey lol
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: a sleeping orgy just like what happened with me and jen. asleep then bam got elbowed and u knowthe rest
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: michael come cuddle with
Dolphins "Я" Us: If I wake up with my pants wet I'll know I accidentally elbowed you in my sleep.
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: she still has to return the favor though =/ or i might be wanging later.
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: i woke up at 6.. i have to be up til 3am later =/
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: jen's on call.. -_-
Dolphins "Я" Us: *cuddles with Amber*
Dolphins "Я" Us: Damn that sucks
Dolphins "Я" Us: Come sleep with us Air!
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: doesnt mean u have to be awake til 3
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: prolly card games again
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: well usually.. cause she cdant stay up. and if her phone rings she needs to be up for it. and i know shes tired from work.
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: ok go to sleep best. ill eat then cuddle.
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: i would say "go to sleep east coasters"
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: but now im here too. lol
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: haha no best we cant cuddle until i'm there
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: *hugs amber and michael*
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: HUG .... and a real one like a month....
şταrvinġ τọ ßė şαfε: :]
Dolphins "Я" Us: :)
╠ ǎΜβεŕ λ ΣVΣŘ ╣: seems so far away

early morning thinking

IM involved with alot of adult things.. like it never really hit me. Love- for all but Im looking for a life together with someone..fixing real problems i the world... I should be getting high and doing coke with my friends but no.. I choose to endure and live a life that Ifind meaningful.. I every once in awhile I get flashbacks to old memorys.. as if I am there I feel the mood and see the picture.. even hear it. not audibly but as a deeply detailed memory. and I see my life. just as it was. the simple things which brought me such joy. but now.. anguish.. but I endure because I find it meaningful. that Ican really do something good in the world.. will I be able to look back and know that I have not wasted it? I miss the simple things..
as I lie in bed my blue woven cotton blanket embracing me keeping me from going astray I hear the radio softly playing some nice indie tune with the birds in the plum tree as chorus. the rustling hum of the heater billowing warmth before it turning off from being too hot. my crimson red curtains blocking off the sun from view with only a tease of light peering through.
eyes half opened reluctant to make any movement I sleepily gazed at my new room. beside me I felt duke curl up beside me to wake me up.. I liked that memory.. but it passed like childhood dream, without smiling or feeling sad I feel myself alone.. the music enhancing the silence of the room.. the place does not smell of dukes death anymore... the stillness is conforting.. like a new house ready to be lived in.. ready for new life...
buzzruzzerugherugh erugh.. the heating went on.
I roll my eyes looking across the room, the sun streaking through the curtains, they glow with a familiar angle of a old friend captured in stillness.
my body felt big to me. arms lanky and thick, strong. Ive lost perspective of my body, sometimes its weird seeing your own body without seeing it in a mirror. reminds you that your there. that this is real, and that ive got to get up... but this bed feels great...damn ive got to go pee again..

discoery of a new guilty pleasure

Ive just had so much fun.. im so amazed!
while watching bring it on I decided to start dancing with the main character when she first trys out for her new school team. I copied her and found a grove, I started having lots of fun! I like what it feels like to move. I want to learn how to dance! I really think show buisness is for me.

before I said I wanted to move to california and become a movie star.. I want to act and be involved in the arts... anyways.. I was watching bring it on and it came to my immediate attention that I want a daughter.. I wish I could get rich and raise a daughter in california. I think about it everytime I see one of these sunshine state sweethearts.

motivated me to work a lot harder.

polyamerous relationship

I want this type of relationship.. I want a family, children.. but I want to be with a man..

first poem

I was reading some poems online which I was very impressed upon reading.
I got into poetry because I wanted to make a song to sing and I didnt know how to write lyrics.
so I decided to just make a poem.. Sara Teasdale really inspired me.. her poems are amazing.

so here is the begining... I thought it was lame at first cause I just put up buzz words.. but it actually sounds ok! so I thought to myself... this is so easy! I could totally make a poem! god knows that I have enough creative emotions in me.

till the day comes to pass
when day turns to night
thine twilight moves to pose
of yester years midnight

aloft with bitter-sweet regret
love lost but never forget